and the tears almost come

the tears almost come

and then i sneeze

must be thinking truth

and i almost fall

to my knees

praying for my youth

the years don't return

and then i laugh

must be thinking absurd

and i almost sing

but my voice

doesn't find a word

i've never felt this broken

or afraid of things i've done

i've never felt this unsure

or wrong and it's no fun

the tears almost come

and then i sigh

must be bored with myself

and i almost wish

for the end

of the book on my shelf

the dust hides the titles

and then i laugh

must be thinking insane

and i almost feel

something else

but i still find pain

i've never felt this awful

thoughts in my mind weigh a ton

i've never felt this sorry

or wrong and it's no fun

and the tears almost come

October 2, 2008