Tell me

tell me you see beyond the universe
listen to my sighs
tell me you see everything
in my eyes

tell me you see the truth in my soul print
gently spread my thighs
tell me you see everything
in my eyes

tell me you understand what god meant
where the eagle flies
tell me you see everything
in my eyes

2005-03-08

and I will cry

and I will cry a million tears
for every drop of love that's lost
for ever hope that's dashed or tossed
on pylons jagged with deep fears

and I will sigh a million sighs
for ever breath of love exhaled
for ever dream broke or impaled
on reasons that defy all whys

for I have known the truth that sails
the oceans of an angel's heart
and now I crumble mostly dead
to feel the world tear it apart

will no one stand for innocence
for justice of the holy right
for what any new born cries
for just to be held throughout the night

will no one stop the petulance
of greedy insecure children
grown to power on age old lies
gods corrupted once again

oh I will scream a million years
of hellish promises unspoiled
of virgin rapes ornated oiled
condemn me to express your fears

for I will never close my eyes
to conform to a world of lies
and I will not silence the cries
no matter how much I despise

the victims who still have a choice
the free men who still have a voice
the fools who hide behind their fears
in pious robes on golden stairs

awake, new born
and breath once more
remember what this life is for
the answer is within your core
the love that once made you so sure

2004-02-25

Ambiviolence

for the ambiviolence

how do I get your attention
scream fuck-you-bitch in your ear?
oh did I forget to mention
I don’t think you really care

how do I expose your abuses
spill more blood and cause more pain?
tighten your necktie-like nooses?
how does one reach the insane?

is blood the only language you can hear?
is pain the only sensation you feel?
is hope a hopeless cause because you fear?
how the hell do I get you to get real?

the way of the world is not working
the message is not getting through
the prophets have come, the prophets have gone
and we still don’t know what to do

the way of the world is not working
how do I get this through to you?
condemn me if it makes you feel any better
but listen to what’s really true

seems as long as nobody bursts your bubbles
you can pretend that everything’s alright
kill or die rather than resolve your troubles
no wonder your dreams only come at night

well you stupid mother fucker
nature has been raped enough
have I gotten your attention?
do I have to be so rough?

you ignore the peaceful prophets
you abuse the kind and meek
you refuse the truth before you
you say turn the other cheek

but your attention’s what I seek
and I won’t get through if I am boring
so shock-words are the words I speak
you’re an expert at ignoring

so now that I have your attention
what are you going to do
spend another day raping your mother
complaining that I offend you

or will you pull your head out of the sand
and open your eyes to what’s true
how many more children will you let die
before you try something new?

the way of the world is not working
the message is not getting through
the prophets have come, the prophets have gone
and we still don’t know what to do

the way of the world is not working
how do I get this through to you?
condemn me if it makes you feel any better
but listen to what’s really true

something o'clock

Her Song

this song's for you

I just want to know
how your day begins
do you rush to the children
do you cuddle with him

do you drag yourself creeping
or love where you are found
do you think of what's missing
or cherish what's around

I just want to know
how you spent your noon
are you watching the tele
are you singing a tune

do you manage your meetings
does your work bring your smile
would you have just a moment
to walk one more mile

I just want to know
how do you feel
what is forgotten
and what is real

for deep in my heart
you'll always have home
whatever you're doing
wherever you roam

I wake up wondering
about all the love
the love I have given
the love I dream of

the love that's still waiting
for someone to share
and how you are doing
cuz I'll always care

if you're ever lonely
or feeling despair
if you need anything
you have a friend here

I hope you are happy
and dreams have come true
and maybe you're smiling
knowing
this song's for you

I just want to know
how your day ends
are you relaxing
is sleep a friend

do you have empty space
s for an old memory
do you ever stop caring
do you think of me

and the love that's still waiting
for someone to share
without hesitating
just living to care

may you never be lonely
or feeling despair
but if you need anything
you have a friend here

I hope you are happy
and dreams have come true
and maybe you're smiling
knowing
this song's for you

2004-05-01 10:50 p.m.

Ode to Toronto

Ode to Toronto 4:02 a.m.

precious place
in spite of the hell
I found there

heaven's grace
in spite of the one
worst-case fear

eyes and face
haunt me when I sleep
when I dream
when I wake

out of place
out of time
point of break

and just like the late show
I passed that point long ago
along with Jackson Browne
and Harry Chapin
Croche, Stevens, John, Joel, and the telling
if roadkill could feel
it would be too real

I just wanted you to know
of a
precious place
Toronto

oh Toronto, such a dream you were
froze me out one bitter December
oh Toronto, I remember her
and the kids, all we did
never ends
oh Toronto, holding my best friends
and worst enemies
taught me of the birds and the bees
and cruelties
oh Toronto, I dream I'm still there
is it a nightmare?
Toronto
my dear
Toronto
I'm still here
you're still there
Toronto
everywhere

the soundtrack of a life
plays in a broken loop
somewhere in time
far away
kept away
such a crime

and just like the late show
I passed that point long ago
along with Sarah Mac
and Tom Chapin
Denver, fill in the blanks and the telling
like the Hotel California
desperado never left ya
cant forget ya

and wherever I go
I just wanted you to know
of a
precious place
Toronto

I just wanted you to know
I still love you
Toronto

- Ode