the tears almost come
and then i sneeze
must be thinking truth
and i almost fall
to my knees
praying for my youth
the years don't return
and then i laugh
must be thinking absurd
and i almost sing
but my voice
doesn't find a word
i've never felt this broken
or afraid of things i've done
i've never felt this unsure
or wrong and it's no fun
the tears almost come
and then i sigh
must be bored with myself
and i almost wish
for the end
of the book on my shelf
the dust hides the titles
and then i laugh
must be thinking insane
and i almost feel
something else
but i still find pain
i've never felt this awful
thoughts in my mind weigh a ton
i've never felt this sorry
or wrong and it's no fun
and the tears almost come
October 2, 2008
